Although i have written on the lines of this topic before but you guys can take it as a continuation if you like.Well to begin with no matter what you achieve.what you buy,what you get yourself you can never be satisfied.Its not in human nature to be.They are always looking for more.Searching for more riches to somehow make them feel better,Somehow make them feel happy.But all the riches in this world can not buy real happiness.You continue your search for happiness everywhere you go in everything you do.But you never know if you're truly happy because what is happiness can never be fully defined.It's very subjective and indeterminable o say the least.You'll always be looking out for something.
But If you for a moment stop and say No I have had enough.I am happy as i am right now.I have found everything i ever wanted and everything i was looking for then what would happen to you.I personally believe that you would cease to exist.You no longer would belong to this world.You can in many ways become one with the supreme one.You leave all the riches here,everything you have ever gained to gain the biggest prize of them all.But we don't want that do we?We want to live in this world as it is here we have always belonged.Who has seen heaven?Nobody alive i can say.We live all our life in this materialistic world and here is where we die.So why should we want the riches of some other world.
Answer is very simple if you believe me.It's simply because nobody living in this world is happy with his or her existence.They are looking for ways to get out of the mess they are in.And only the riches of that other world supposedly can provide them with the exit.That's the view generally held by many.I for a change am a part of the crowd here.I agree with this point of view because for me its only in the holy aode can you really be content for once and for all in your everlasting life.No more running,no more hunting.This is the ultimate peace you can get and the only thing worth living for,worth dying for:)
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Monday, February 25, 2008
What I've Done
People are strange when you're a stranger Faces look ugly when you're alone
Women seem wicked when you're unwanted streets are uneven when you're down
When you're strange faces come out of the rain when you're srange........................so sang Jim.......
But that is something very true...very very true. Whatever you think of them thy can surprise you at every moment. The expectations thy have of you.the expectations you have of them
Its hard to make every1 arnd u happy no matter wat you do you somehow somewhere put yourself infront and let go of others. This hurts people although you never intended to.
People are strange...they make views very quickly on different topics.What you said what you meant. what you didnt mean and the related stuff.they don't give u a chance to explain urself,forming their opinions and sticking to them no matter what.
I find this aspect very disturbing because for me everyone i care abt should always have a good opinion of me.If by any chance i have left them down then i try my best to let them know whether it was a fault of mine or not and even if it was, why it happened.But like life ppl dnt give u a second chance.for them what's once done is done no turning back.But im nt like tht.I give people chance to say they are sorry and accept their explanations as to why things happened.I am always willing to lend an ear,something i'm always short of when it is my turn.
Expectations.....what does this word mean?what does it include?its always hard to live up to other's expectations is wat every1 says.but is tht really true or is it tht we promise so much to others tht thy strt thnkn more and more of us nd as a consequence thy want us to deliver more everytime?Friendship is one relationship where every1 says tht all u shd ever do is give nvr expect nethng in return..But how cn tht be are we not humans?do we ourselves don't want nethng for ourselves?I believe whoever said tht must have gotten a lot............
Life is beautiful...........people spend time worrying about stuff tht doesn't really matter actually.I know i do it all the time.I tend to live in the past whereas LIFE is now...I keep on telling myself not to sweat the small stuff but still i do.its when heart runs over mind tht such decisions are taken.This is why we feel th pain and hurt when something goes wrong because we are nevr detached frm th worldly possessions.From emotions,greed,want..............But then again if all this goes missing from our lives then wat kind of life would we be living?A dull monotonous life where everyday we would want death to come and take us away.Is that normal?that is a sadistic thought but sadly many of us feel like this a lot of time.
Finally...............the question now arises that is there a cure for all this?Can human suffering be controlled?Can emotions,need and want really exist and still not make us miserable?Can we strike the right balance?If so do we need someone with us to strike that balance or can we handle it on our own?These are some of the many thoughts that crossed my mind today which i have written here and hope to get some answers to.Who answers them for me is still a mystery............................
P.S. - Thoughts might not have been articulated properly so for further clarifications don't contact me.
Women seem wicked when you're unwanted streets are uneven when you're down
When you're strange faces come out of the rain when you're srange........................so sang Jim.......
But that is something very true...very very true. Whatever you think of them thy can surprise you at every moment. The expectations thy have of you.the expectations you have of them
Its hard to make every1 arnd u happy no matter wat you do you somehow somewhere put yourself infront and let go of others. This hurts people although you never intended to.
People are strange...they make views very quickly on different topics.What you said what you meant. what you didnt mean and the related stuff.they don't give u a chance to explain urself,forming their opinions and sticking to them no matter what.
I find this aspect very disturbing because for me everyone i care abt should always have a good opinion of me.If by any chance i have left them down then i try my best to let them know whether it was a fault of mine or not and even if it was, why it happened.But like life ppl dnt give u a second chance.for them what's once done is done no turning back.But im nt like tht.I give people chance to say they are sorry and accept their explanations as to why things happened.I am always willing to lend an ear,something i'm always short of when it is my turn.
Expectations.....what does this word mean?what does it include?its always hard to live up to other's expectations is wat every1 says.but is tht really true or is it tht we promise so much to others tht thy strt thnkn more and more of us nd as a consequence thy want us to deliver more everytime?Friendship is one relationship where every1 says tht all u shd ever do is give nvr expect nethng in return..But how cn tht be are we not humans?do we ourselves don't want nethng for ourselves?I believe whoever said tht must have gotten a lot............
Life is beautiful...........people spend time worrying about stuff tht doesn't really matter actually.I know i do it all the time.I tend to live in the past whereas LIFE is now...I keep on telling myself not to sweat the small stuff but still i do.its when heart runs over mind tht such decisions are taken.This is why we feel th pain and hurt when something goes wrong because we are nevr detached frm th worldly possessions.From emotions,greed,want..............But then again if all this goes missing from our lives then wat kind of life would we be living?A dull monotonous life where everyday we would want death to come and take us away.Is that normal?that is a sadistic thought but sadly many of us feel like this a lot of time.
Finally...............the question now arises that is there a cure for all this?Can human suffering be controlled?Can emotions,need and want really exist and still not make us miserable?Can we strike the right balance?If so do we need someone with us to strike that balance or can we handle it on our own?These are some of the many thoughts that crossed my mind today which i have written here and hope to get some answers to.Who answers them for me is still a mystery............................
P.S. - Thoughts might not have been articulated properly so for further clarifications don't contact me.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
A Look Back
Ok its been around a two month break since i last wrote on Christmas. A lot has happened since then in my life. Saw many results come out..for the exams i was preparin.....
A lot of studyin and practise ensued....hardwork is needed.Man i did study i can say that much. But the fact remains was that enough, coz others too would have studied..nt me alone......Wat is it that makes MBA exams so popular and the hysteria around them.People are today mad about doin MBA.It doesn't matter from where they do it.They have to do it.This is how people feel.
Here i atleast think something is missing.So much stress on good management skills has been put that people today don't regard the other skills with same dignity. I mean u cn still be a leader and a team player even if ur nt a manager.But somehow the degree seems to emphasise the opposite.Even the corporates are not willing to give candidates a chance if they are not from a B-school let alone a good B-school.This social structure is putting undue stress on people today.Mnagement today is looked upon as a necessity rather than a want or need.
Why has this developed is not difficult to understand but i won't talk about that.It's disturbing engh tht this exists.Can we imagine wat is this rat race leading to.people are working hard getting higher degrees,working late,stayin away from family,earnong big bucks,splurging them on materialistic things.Things which are ephemeral in their value.Consequently, they get bored with them soon.Big pay packets have given rise to high degree of consumerism.what has this resulted in?Envy among peers/neighbours for sure.I doubt that many are satisfied with the kind of life they are living.Running around here and there.Taking orders from ppl thy dnt respect.Submitting themselves to greed.
why is it so has any one ever stopped to think and consider.If you take a survey the answer would most probably come out a big no.People are too busy to think where their life is headed and why their doin wat thy r doin.Is this wat thy want and if so thn y? just because somebody else has it or is this ur aim in life.if people stop for a while take some rest and take a look back at their lives thy would surely not be very happy.The missed b'day of their loved one.The first steps of ur kid.Ur parents anniversary.Somethings money can't buy says the MasterCard,that definitely includes Time,Love among others.But i would like to focus on time at this point.
Time is the biggest reality.It has brought down the biggest of empires through out history.No one has stood and defeated time.So why do ppl today thnk thy can.Death will come no matter how much advances science can make.So y the fighting and running around.You came alone to this world,and you will go alone.You wont take away nethn.no money,clothes,memories,love..nthn
everything is so superficial yet it is this wat we demand.what we crave for.this is wat has taken away our peace of mind.But its high time ppl do smthn abt it.This life is nt to be wsted.Appreciate it.start by appreciating nature.Ur fellow humans,animals.Find beauty where u cn and learn to appreciate.Take ur mind off grievances instead learn to be happy in small things.That makes a hell of a differnce.develop love in ur dealings.Try to be more happy thn sad.take out time fr urself.think about stuff.let ur mind relax.
Its high time we took a step back and gave A LOOK BACK.
A lot of studyin and practise ensued....hardwork is needed.Man i did study i can say that much. But the fact remains was that enough, coz others too would have studied..nt me alone......Wat is it that makes MBA exams so popular and the hysteria around them.People are today mad about doin MBA.It doesn't matter from where they do it.They have to do it.This is how people feel.
Here i atleast think something is missing.So much stress on good management skills has been put that people today don't regard the other skills with same dignity. I mean u cn still be a leader and a team player even if ur nt a manager.But somehow the degree seems to emphasise the opposite.Even the corporates are not willing to give candidates a chance if they are not from a B-school let alone a good B-school.This social structure is putting undue stress on people today.Mnagement today is looked upon as a necessity rather than a want or need.
Why has this developed is not difficult to understand but i won't talk about that.It's disturbing engh tht this exists.Can we imagine wat is this rat race leading to.people are working hard getting higher degrees,working late,stayin away from family,earnong big bucks,splurging them on materialistic things.Things which are ephemeral in their value.Consequently, they get bored with them soon.Big pay packets have given rise to high degree of consumerism.what has this resulted in?Envy among peers/neighbours for sure.I doubt that many are satisfied with the kind of life they are living.Running around here and there.Taking orders from ppl thy dnt respect.Submitting themselves to greed.
why is it so has any one ever stopped to think and consider.If you take a survey the answer would most probably come out a big no.People are too busy to think where their life is headed and why their doin wat thy r doin.Is this wat thy want and if so thn y? just because somebody else has it or is this ur aim in life.if people stop for a while take some rest and take a look back at their lives thy would surely not be very happy.The missed b'day of their loved one.The first steps of ur kid.Ur parents anniversary.Somethings money can't buy says the MasterCard,that definitely includes Time,Love among others.But i would like to focus on time at this point.
Time is the biggest reality.It has brought down the biggest of empires through out history.No one has stood and defeated time.So why do ppl today thnk thy can.Death will come no matter how much advances science can make.So y the fighting and running around.You came alone to this world,and you will go alone.You wont take away nethn.no money,clothes,memories,love..nthn
everything is so superficial yet it is this wat we demand.what we crave for.this is wat has taken away our peace of mind.But its high time ppl do smthn abt it.This life is nt to be wsted.Appreciate it.start by appreciating nature.Ur fellow humans,animals.Find beauty where u cn and learn to appreciate.Take ur mind off grievances instead learn to be happy in small things.That makes a hell of a differnce.develop love in ur dealings.Try to be more happy thn sad.take out time fr urself.think about stuff.let ur mind relax.
Its high time we took a step back and gave A LOOK BACK.
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Just a Little Unwell
Well i know that this is not an original scrip but i can't help it this song is so close to my heart and aptly describes my life so far with very few moments outside the purview of the lyrics here...so here it is UNWELL by MatchBox 20
All day, Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night, Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on, I'm feeling like
I'm headed for aBreakdown, I don't know why
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me
Talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know, I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me, Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow, I've lost my mind
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
All day, Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night, Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on, I'm feeling like
I'm headed for aBreakdown, I don't know why
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me
Talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know, I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me, Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow, I've lost my mind
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Where am i headed
I am a dreamer.Always have been.Starting right from my school years when i dreamt of making it big.I have to admit i dreamed of being famous in school.But never got around to being one.Consoling myself that things would change once i enter college.After all 'HUM HUM HAIN BAKI SAB PAANI KAM HAI'.So passed away the final year of school.
Come college and i was all excited about being truly independent about doing what i wanted to do thru the day rather than sit in a room doing what others wanted me to do.But reality struck the situation wasn't much different.With the result oriented Educational Field in the country how can one expect to sit back and let others run ahead.So came the rat race.attending all classes and running here n thr for the notes.My dream of being famous took many turns and changes first was performing in cultural events which i turned down on my account.You can say i was sy but i wd term it more as a fear of being laughed at.
I admit it thr ws this insecurity tht hass stopped me time n again frm showing my talents/even participating (ok).....but then i though tht if i really want to be famous thn i must get to knw a lot of seniors and tht requires work so i set out tryin my hand at volunteering for Fests n all.
But that too didnt materialise over the next 2 yrs.
Slowly my dream faded away and i accepted the reality tht i wsn't to be the one who every1 knew.I like many others was just anthr guy.Nothin special in me to showoff as it is.my focussed shifted from college to the next level i knew tht i wd have to do wll in job/MBA to get noticed nd took heart in tht.
But let me state here for the record that all my life everything i have done has been for a purpose not for the heck of it.I do things only if thy give me something back in return otherwise not.Call it selfishness but i say its th truth with every1 doing the same thing.im nt ashamed of it.
This is not to say that i dnt help out people.I do as much as i can but it has a hidden reason behind it.I like the good feeling you get when you help people.I like it how i feel having hekped some1 out.
coming back to subject at hand colg got over job began but again i missed out but i guess i cdnt help it thr isnt much to do here to really call urself famous.So i dnt care..But i have a dream tht was structured when i read a line that has been in my head ever since.what i do in life is inconsequential as long as whatever i do makes a difference to even 1 person and when i die i can go peacefully knowing that people would remmember me saying how gr8 a guy he was and not just the ones i knw but also th ones i dnt knw.thts what shd be th true purpose of one's life.I want to leave behind a legacy where people look up to me for anythng they want........................................................................................................................
Come college and i was all excited about being truly independent about doing what i wanted to do thru the day rather than sit in a room doing what others wanted me to do.But reality struck the situation wasn't much different.With the result oriented Educational Field in the country how can one expect to sit back and let others run ahead.So came the rat race.attending all classes and running here n thr for the notes.My dream of being famous took many turns and changes first was performing in cultural events which i turned down on my account.You can say i was sy but i wd term it more as a fear of being laughed at.
I admit it thr ws this insecurity tht hass stopped me time n again frm showing my talents/even participating (ok).....but then i though tht if i really want to be famous thn i must get to knw a lot of seniors and tht requires work so i set out tryin my hand at volunteering for Fests n all.
But that too didnt materialise over the next 2 yrs.
Slowly my dream faded away and i accepted the reality tht i wsn't to be the one who every1 knew.I like many others was just anthr guy.Nothin special in me to showoff as it is.my focussed shifted from college to the next level i knew tht i wd have to do wll in job/MBA to get noticed nd took heart in tht.
But let me state here for the record that all my life everything i have done has been for a purpose not for the heck of it.I do things only if thy give me something back in return otherwise not.Call it selfishness but i say its th truth with every1 doing the same thing.im nt ashamed of it.
This is not to say that i dnt help out people.I do as much as i can but it has a hidden reason behind it.I like the good feeling you get when you help people.I like it how i feel having hekped some1 out.
coming back to subject at hand colg got over job began but again i missed out but i guess i cdnt help it thr isnt much to do here to really call urself famous.So i dnt care..But i have a dream tht was structured when i read a line that has been in my head ever since.what i do in life is inconsequential as long as whatever i do makes a difference to even 1 person and when i die i can go peacefully knowing that people would remmember me saying how gr8 a guy he was and not just the ones i knw but also th ones i dnt knw.thts what shd be th true purpose of one's life.I want to leave behind a legacy where people look up to me for anythng they want........................................................................................................................
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
My Blog
Well to tell the truth here you will find a lot of things about me, me and me only.Simply because i love to talk and especially about myself.so if you don't wanna read it then i'm sorry i can't help it.But i have to be honest here from the outset i have been totally against the idea of blogging terming it as a waste of time and a useless activity.I have always told people what i think of them to their face and not worried about what they might think of me, as a result i have lost quite a few frnds over the years sm pretty close at tht too.I always thought that if someone was close to me he/she'll understand what i want to say and really know that in all earnest i mean the best for them.But sadly people are not like that.they need to be told only positive things about them i.e. all thy need is someone to make them happy.
No one needs a Devil's Advocate just coz' they can't handle the truth and sadly here is where i come in picture as i am the perfect candidate for the post.so as i result i found myself having lot more fights with frnds thn earlier and hence started keeping my thoughts to myself and not letting people know what i want to say.As a result of which i found myself getting frustrated at small thngs and hitting out at th wrng people at th wrng time.
Tht's when i realised i needed an outlet for my thoughts i need to tell people wat i feel and tht's when the idea of blogging struck me.i have to admit this is personal stuff and today people don't give a damn about it but i need an outlet for my thoughts so i don't care wat thy thnk.So this was how i got around to starting a Blog of my own.Stay tuned for more.........................
No one needs a Devil's Advocate just coz' they can't handle the truth and sadly here is where i come in picture as i am the perfect candidate for the post.so as i result i found myself having lot more fights with frnds thn earlier and hence started keeping my thoughts to myself and not letting people know what i want to say.As a result of which i found myself getting frustrated at small thngs and hitting out at th wrng people at th wrng time.
Tht's when i realised i needed an outlet for my thoughts i need to tell people wat i feel and tht's when the idea of blogging struck me.i have to admit this is personal stuff and today people don't give a damn about it but i need an outlet for my thoughts so i don't care wat thy thnk.So this was how i got around to starting a Blog of my own.Stay tuned for more.........................
The Early Years
I always had an inclination for writing but never got around to writing nethn tht cd be termed as an effort.first big effort was in Xth class when i wrote a slew of "sher" is wat u'll call them as in "sher - o - shaiyari" ones.it was an effort no doubt nd wat wid the comments i had to handle at the end of it all from everyone around.That's when i decided to give up writin 'em.
But the writer in me refuseed to die.My closest frnd shifted to Chennai when i entered XIth.So began the era of snail mail a hearty exchange of letters between us stretching over 2 yrs.Boy it seems so long back taking it was not the time of E-mails yet.That was a time when i used to write about almost everythng happening in my life.
But tht chngd with e-mails nd all nd we gt anthr mode to communicate.but colg life made me a bit lazy nd the my mind weaned off a bit of writing.But all tht changed in Feb 2004 when due to a very important reason i decided to reinvigorate my writer abilities and started a new phase which continues till date.I began writing poems.Although i won't term as extraordinary or nethng.I am quite humble u c so i cn say thy are at best amateurish with no use of hi-fi words n all just plain simple english and rhyming sentences.
So i can say i'm a writer at heart but the output maynot be too exceptional(sadly).
This was the background of my writing career in short..he he ok i knw it was a pj but still felt good..he he..................
But the writer in me refuseed to die.My closest frnd shifted to Chennai when i entered XIth.So began the era of snail mail a hearty exchange of letters between us stretching over 2 yrs.Boy it seems so long back taking it was not the time of E-mails yet.That was a time when i used to write about almost everythng happening in my life.
But tht chngd with e-mails nd all nd we gt anthr mode to communicate.but colg life made me a bit lazy nd the my mind weaned off a bit of writing.But all tht changed in Feb 2004 when due to a very important reason i decided to reinvigorate my writer abilities and started a new phase which continues till date.I began writing poems.Although i won't term as extraordinary or nethng.I am quite humble u c so i cn say thy are at best amateurish with no use of hi-fi words n all just plain simple english and rhyming sentences.
So i can say i'm a writer at heart but the output maynot be too exceptional(sadly).
This was the background of my writing career in short..he he ok i knw it was a pj but still felt good..he he..................
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