Where am i headed

I am a dreamer.Always have been.Starting right from my school years when i dreamt of making it big.I have to admit i dreamed of being famous in school.But never got around to being one.Consoling myself that things would change once i enter college.After all 'HUM HUM HAIN BAKI SAB PAANI KAM HAI'.So passed away the final year of school.
Come college and i was all excited about being truly independent about doing what i wanted to do thru the day rather than sit in a room doing what others wanted me to do.But reality struck the situation wasn't much different.With the result oriented Educational Field in the country how can one expect to sit back and let others run ahead.So came the rat race.attending all classes and running here n thr for the notes.My dream of being famous took many turns and changes first was performing in cultural events which i turned down on my account.You can say i was sy but i wd term it more as a fear of being laughed at.
I admit it thr ws this insecurity tht hass stopped me time n again frm showing my talents/even participating (ok).....but then i though tht if i really want to be famous thn i must get to knw a lot of seniors and tht requires work so i set out tryin my hand at volunteering for Fests n all.
But that too didnt materialise over the next 2 yrs.
Slowly my dream faded away and i accepted the reality tht i wsn't to be the one who every1 knew.I like many others was just anthr guy.Nothin special in me to showoff as it is.my focussed shifted from college to the next level i knew tht i wd have to do wll in job/MBA to get noticed nd took heart in tht.
But let me state here for the record that all my life everything i have done has been for a purpose not for the heck of it.I do things only if thy give me something back in return otherwise not.Call it selfishness but i say its th truth with every1 doing the same thing.im nt ashamed of it.
This is not to say that i dnt help out people.I do as much as i can but it has a hidden reason behind it.I like the good feeling you get when you help people.I like it how i feel having hekped some1 out.
coming back to subject at hand colg got over job began but again i missed out but i guess i cdnt help it thr isnt much to do here to really call urself famous.So i dnt care..But i have a dream tht was structured when i read a line that has been in my head ever since.what i do in life is inconsequential as long as whatever i do makes a difference to even 1 person and when i die i can go peacefully knowing that people would remmember me saying how gr8 a guy he was and not just the ones i knw but also th ones i dnt knw.thts what shd be th true purpose of one's life.I want to leave behind a legacy where people look up to me for anythng they want........................................................................................................................