What happens when you in some way hurt someone who has hurt you? You knew that what ever you are doing might hurt the other person. You don't want that to happen but you also want to let the other person know that you were hurt by his/her behaviour/comments. You have that feeling of sadness inside you that has been there for so long that now you almost feel incomplete without it. You have that frustration that anger that you want to vent out on someone. You have that need that craving to let it all out of your system. You want to say what you want to but haven't been able to.
What do you do? You find a medium for your expressions. You find something that you can openly do without needing anybody else to take that ball of fire raging inside you and slam it for a homerun out of the park. When it comes down to it the best way to truly express yourself is through writing. You can't physically harm anyone. Emotionally yes, maybe a lot more than you could physically but in this doog eat dog world do we really care about anyone else but ourselves. I am all for philanthrophy and not troubling others and hurting them even at the expense of my discomfort, a small price to pay i would say. But what happens when that small discomfort becomes a big pool of pain and sorrow and the mere mention of it brings your life to a standstill. Can you still follow those rules and still be as good nature as you have been.?
I can't. I admit i just can't. I can stand pain and sorrow but there is a limit to how much i can take. So when that limit is crossed i would say the dam of patience and silence would break. The rush of feelings gate crashing through life and sweeping away every emotion that had been stored. Washing away the pain and making the slate clean, partially. Whenever a dam breaks it can cause havoc in lives of many. So coming back to the point. What happens when some of your actions hurt someone else who has hurt you a lot. How do you feel then? Do you feel sad because you never like to hurt anyone and don't want to be the reason for anyone's sorrow? or do you feel a bit vengeful knowing that the other person too has gone through the pain which you have gone through? Do you feel happy that maybe now he/she realise the mistakes they have made, the hurt they have caused?
I am divided on this point as i don't know what to feel. I hate hurting others. If it were in my hands i would never dream of hurting anyone in my life. I know i would still be hurt by someone or the other in my life but still i don't wish evil of anyone that i know of. After all who am i to pass judgement on their deeds. The lord almighty is capable enough to handle that. But i also do want to let the persons know that i'm hurting because of them. So what should i feel? This question has been bugging me for 2 days now and i still can't seem to get an answer to it. What i do know is that i'm sorry if i hurt someone through my actions/comments/behaviour but if its the truth thats the cause of the hurt then i ain't sorry. I mean if im hurting someone by speaking the truth then i won't say im sorry. People are mature enough to accept reality, know the truth. If they are not then it's their fault. Not everybody will be nice to them forever if they continue like this. Its time to wake up and face it - This world is not a fairytale. You have to struggle for every bit of happiness you want. You have to facve the ups and downs. But above all there will always be people there to hurt you but what you must keep in mind is to take care of those who are always there to help you. If you forget that part then it will always be a steep downfall for you and in some cases the persons who love you....................
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